I have a friend that is also single, & he keeps telling me to trust God for a mate…My question is, “Why? He’s done NOTHING so far.” God has pretty much been a “no-show” in the “help department” since I first started trying to date (my teenage years). In fact, He’s been a “Non-Entity” in it! It’s not that I don’t believe in God; I do, but I just don’t think He cares about this issue. If He did, I would’ve been married for 20 years by now. So, I’m not buying “the God thing”. Sorry, Charlie,…I’m just not. Not that the “Internet Dating thing” has worked so well, either; it hasn’t, but at least I’ve gotten some dates off of it (even though most have been duds), I’m at a loss as to what to do, to tell the truth. I’m genuinely afraid that I going to be alone all my life! Either way,…it’s not good. Some of the sites I’ve been on have been Match.com, OkCupid.com, Christiandate.com, Fusion101.com, & the all-time bust, Plentyoffish.com – now, THERE’s a misnomer, if EVER there was one (more like Plentyoffoulups.com)! People are just shits!
And no one wants me on there, either! I got told by one girl that I was too short to date! I mean, my God… People are just mean! I’m probably never going to get married at this rate. No one cares. I’ve just basically lost hope. I’m tired of talking to people, I’m tired of being ignored, I’m tired of writing profiles that don’t work, I’m tired of putting pictures online, I tired of writing about myself, & I’m tired of trying to be nice when all I get is treated like shit!
I’m glad too. I’ve had ENOUGH of 2019! Failed relationships. Car repairs ($2100.00 worth!). Jaskass liberals. Crazy family. Bullshit Impeachment hearings.
…relationship-wise, but all-in-all, I’m ok with that. Right now, I’ve got things to take care of.
BUT, I’m not going to have anyone control me, or cajole me beyond reason, for being who I am, and I won’t be with anyone who does that. I am getting too old for that kind of thing. That is all I’m saying. Is that so unreasonable?
The era of Sarah Starkey is over. She just kept yo-yoing on me. She would accuse me of cheating on her, as well as other things… I’ve just grown tired of it. I was planning to go up to Missouri in June of 2020 to see her, but that’s out now, and quite frankly, I’m relieved. I’m getting too old for this kind of stuff. I’ll have other chances with other people…it’ll work out.
Last night, I was told something I still can’t believe…a person that I’ve been talking to admitted that she recently had a fling with another woman!…I’ve forgiven her, but I don’t know what to truthfully do from here. Now, I’m having to compete with other women! What next, …farm animals!?! Jesus “freaking” Christ and Holy Shit!!! Humanity is fucked up!!!