…just what in Hell do I think I’m doing? I had some woman berate me the other night over some supposed thing I don’t even remember doing! Needless to say, I didn’t appreciate it! I’m to the point that I don’t give a damn who messes with me now, outside of Jesus Christ! People are just nuts…and it’s only getting worse. I’m just fed up!
Bobie let me go the very same way Joy did…she cheated on me. I’m starting to wonder again if I was made for anybody! Oh well, I’m just going to concentrate on getting my bills paid for now. I’m not even sure if I even WANT to go to my friend’s wedding in February! More later…
I AM going to pay my car repairs, credit card, computer, & coins off. I’m hoping to get this stuff cleared by mid-February. I’m putting dating on hold for a while (but I’m leaving my profiles up; whatever happens, happens), while I take care of these bills. Once I get these mail order coins paid off, I’ll just stick to buying local coins.
Back to the gym, too. I’m sick of being out of the gym.
I believe God has changed me these 2 1/2 years. I’m no longer mad or upset at God or any stupid stuff like that. That was just dumb frustration to begin with, on my part.
I’m a lot calmer now, too. I’ve noticed it, and other people have. too. It just isn’t worthy to worry about garbage like that. If people want to be jackasses, who cares?
…on me the other day…she just wanted to make sure I wasn’t bitter over Bobie, I’m not; I just hate that I wasted time on it.
it turns out, I didn’t. We got our signals crossed several times, so it just wasn’t meant to be! DAMN IT! I’m going to kick Murphy square in the BALLS for this one! I hope God sends him PERSONALLY to a flaming Hell! I’m not letting it eat at me, these things happen, but I think the Devil’s secret name IS Murphy!
Again, she sounds wonderful…I’m just trying to be careful, because I don’t want to make the same mistake I did last time. I don’t think I will, but I’m just trying to be careful.
it has happened again….I think I have found someone! We are due to meet this Sunday for lunch. Her name is Bobie. We’ve talked over the phone several times and she sounds really nice. I have a few ideas on where to go, but I want to get something healthy. I’m thinking Outback Steakhouse wouldn’t be a bad idea. Maybe O’Charley’s, but I’m really not crazy about them. For that matter, I’m not crazy about Outback, either, but they both have salmon…so, that’s good! I need to eat healthier.
This time, I just sat back and waited on it. I really had had enough of the female mind changing and games. She found me, because I got tired and just left my profile up. Anyway, I think it will turn out fine, and if it doesn’t, back to the drawing board!